प्रतिबद्धता की हरी-भरी हल्की-हल्की हवा

मैंने कभी सोचा भी नहीं कि कोई ‘खरगोश’ मुझसे peace हड़प सकता है।

इसकी शुरुआत सिर्फ curiosity से हुई—एक चाइली टू (जापानी प्रभाव) स्लॉट, जहाँ प्रकाशमय हरखगोश पटरियों पर ‘घूमते’। हर-दिन: 20 मिनट, ‘जादू’ महसूस करने।

पर कुछ बदलता हुआ…

पहला संकेत? समय कोई प्रभावचक्‍षि होता। फिर: Daily bonus check → free spins chase → leaderboards pe ‘ज़िम्मेदार’ like rank.

खेलना? Nahi. Perform karna tha. और then… cracks aaye.

पुरस्कार = Crutch?

व्यवहारविज्ञान (Behavioral Psychology) ka student—dopamine hits aur unpredictable rewards ke baare mein jaanta tha… par jhagda karna aur usse jeevan se juda lena doosre cheez hai.

खेल ₹1289.75 maange nahi… bas attention maange. Har jeet = validation; har haar = personal failure. The more I played, the more I needed that spark—jackpot ki high—or else everything felt flat.

Ek raat, ek bonus round ke liye 3 ghante khelne ke baad main screen ke saamne bina aankhen wali hui thi. Na khush. Na dukhi. Bas… khali.

Tab pata chala: khel ab maza nahi deta… therapy ban gaya tha.

Apni Dhadkan Uthana:

Maine step back nahi kiya—cold turkey kiya nahi… lekin intention se nikla:

• Time limit set: max 30 mins. Visual cues: notifications band karke tab open na karo jo fun ke naam se hai.
• Focus shift: jeetna nahi… present rehna. Screen ki texture dekho, music patterns ko notice karo — mindfulness in motion! Paise budget = ek coffee per day (~$5)
• Gamification use kiya apni addiction ko badlne ke liye—not to addict myself:
  • Mental balance sheet banaya: mood vs play time tracking daily guilt trip se weekly check-ins devolve reward system into reflection tool (e.g., agar chhota jeet to journal karo – excitement? relief?) The goal wasn’t control—it was clarity.

Tum Kamaal Nahi Ho—Tum Respond Kar Rahe Ho

The truth? Hamara dimag novelty aur reward pe respond karne ke liye bana hai—even when hum jaante hain.
Par awareness sab kuch badal deti hai.
Khargosh garden evil nahi hai—it’s designed that way.
Lekin hum apni rasta choose kar sakte hain.

Mai ab bhi kabhi-kabhi jata hoon—not to win—but to remember who I am outside the loop.

And sometimes… that’s enough.

## Final Thought
“अपनी craving ko fear mat karo—uski samajh banao.”

Agar tum yeh padh rahe ho kyunki aaj “बस ek aur spin” bol chuke ho—tumhare saath hoon.

Tum toot nahi gaye ho.
Tum insaan ho—and beautifully responsive.

Chalo seekhte hain kitna dance karte rahenge bina apne aap ko ghumaye.